Defiant

USS DEFIANT

Defiant (dih-fayh-uh nt):
—adjective 

1. characterized by defiance; boldly resistant or challenging: a defiant attitude.

Origin: 1830–40; < French défiant, Old French, present participle of defier to defy; see -ant

I have been told that I have been really defiant recently.  I was told by people that I have a tendency to defy or challenge almost anything.  Some would get frustrated because by it and others would get confused.  On the flip side, I was told that a positive part of it is that, along with my stubbornness, it helped me fight and defeat cancer.  I guess it carried on from there.  
After I learned about that I wondered, am I truly defiant as in being difficult, daring, or a bold resistance to authority or opposing force (Definition of Defiance)?  I don't know, maybe.  I know my body is pretty stubborn to let go because it fights almost every ailment that come before it.   I am also defiant in a way of opposing my neuropathy and move as much as I can, almost acting like it is not even there.  

I don't know.  Maybe I am in some way, I do have a tendency to challenge and defy, but only when necessary, in my view.   I guess though I am not difficult enough to lose much relationships except for maybe one, but I don't think defiance had anything to do with that one.  
Anyway, I am going to have to move on and observe my own behavior.  Maybe I will gain a better understanding about myself.  

Later...............